I have been so busy with my graduated return to work, the rehab, and riding, and being oh so tired and being in pain...and a concert...and child minding.....and volunteering....that I have been derelict in my duties as a blogger.
Last weekend I went riding to Whistler and back. It was a long day.....but something clicked that day. I started to feel good about myself again.
My struggle with depression and anxiety was not helped by the rehab program....being in pain all the time takes its toll on a person's outlook.
I had stopped caring about my appearance most days. I suppose the reason is two fold......I was so shell shocked by the way I have been treated by men that subconsciously, I was trying to not attract any attention.....and having to go to a gym everyday wearing gym gear...didn't inspire me to try to look my best.
Anyway.....for whatever reason....after the ride, I came home so tired....but it was a satisfied tired.
I have tried to take more care. I went for a facial. I started putting on makeup again. I even sprung for a haircut. Being broke sux.
Last Thursday evening I did a volunteer stint for a fund raiser....I made a point of looking good. I am trying to make an effort to bring my self esteem back up.
I have been seeing a psychologist and I am learning some things and benefiting from the appointments.
(if I start to write crazy, it's because I took some muscle relaxers a short time ago. They ease the ache so I can get to sleep. Last week I was in so much pain I had trouble getting to sleep. It's the job.....I truly will have to find something else....in the meantime I am obligated to do this GRTW set up by the insurance company. )
Anyway.......I organized a ride today. There is cruiser forum run locally here in Vancouver......
There were 6 of us today. We had a great ride, good food at lunch, and decent weather.....and then ice cream...
The pics are from today.......
This is the group while we were waiting for another rider to join us.
It was cloudy this morning.
This next picture is from when we stopped out in Abbotsford for lunch. As you can see, it got sunny. (nice and warm , too)
After some riding around we made a stop in White Rock for gelato.....dang! The place was closed. So we went to Crescent Beach to go to another gelato place that one of our group assured us would be open. Nope! Closed.
So we went for ice cream across the street and sat at the beach to enjoy it before heading home.
This pic is from when we stopped in White Rock. I am in the middle.
Little by little I am recovering from the effects of the crash and all the set backs.
Now, I need to get to sleep.....I am still trying to get used to getting back into the rhythm of having to get up for work......