Crispywafers Blog - A Noob with the Jitters
Posted: Tue Jul 24, 2007 3:29 am
I'll start my blog with an intro and some pictures - then we will get to my problem (and hopefully my future motorcycle journal) at the end.
All About Me:
Hi I am Crispy - I'm a 26 year old female from Maryland. I got married in Jamaica a year ago (we did the whole destination wedding thing) and then we got a house, motorcycles, and a puppy in that order. My husband and I both used to be computer security specialists - but I went and decided to do a total career change and now I"m a kindergarten teacher.

All About Riding:
My husband got his first motorcycle in his 3rd year in college. He is now 28. So I have been in the back seat a long time now and just decided, like everything in my life, I would prefer to be the driver. So off I went to take the BRC course. I failed. Yep, you heard me. I failed. Whole thing was very disappointing as I had been doing great the whole class/course. When it came down to test time though, I was the first person in my group to go for all tests and I just choked. I guess I"m a visual learner and I needed to watch someone else ride through those cones first. Anyway, I came back the next week and passed with not even 1 point taken off.

About My Little Crash:
That was last year. After getting the M on my license, my husband and I went out and bought a used Suzuki SV650s for me. It's the same bike he has - which he loves - and is the same bike he learned on. He never outgrew it and as I love the style we now have one motorcycle model in two colors. The bike is a bit tall for me (I'm 5'8") and def. harder to sit on then those 250cc in the BRC class - but I love it.
Fast forward or rather lets to back in time to my little accident. So...
One year ago I was practicing around the neighborhood... Took a slow right turn maybe at something like 15mph no faster - and somehow managed to take the turn way to wide or fast or something and jumped sorta sideways over the curb crashing into the grass at 15mph (I think I need to practice more turning ). Bike over, gear shifter and kickstand take out a large chunk of the neighbors grass.
Now if that was all - I probably wouldn't bother retelling - but oh no..it gets worse.
So I take my 125lb self and actually managed to dead lift the bike up by myself. And you guessed it -...with me crying "no no no no!..." and scrambling it falls over in the other direction and crashes onto the street.
Freaking pissed (and maybe in a slight panic) at this point...I actually manage to dead lift the bike up again by myself. Before you ask - there are no neighbors around as everyone appears to be out of town for July 4th (the exact reason I decide now would be a great time to practice in the neighborhood streets) - and my husband is out paintballing today.
This time I get the bike upright without it falling over in the opposite direction. I notice now that the front brake caliper is hanging off. I start walking the bike back to my house which thankfully is only about 8 houses away... but it's an uphill walk the whole way so I’m panting and cursing.
Get to a point where I have to turn the bike, while pushing uphill...and oh yes... go ahead and guess... ""no no f*ck f*ck" , bike tips over AGAIN.
Now I'm standing there in the middle of the intersection absolutely exhausted and panting like I've run a freaking marathon. I try to get the bike up again - and this time my back is just not having any of it and the bike isn't budging. Finally a group of some teenage boys (finally a CAR) drives by, sees me, and get out of the car to help me get the bike up off the street, up the hill, and into my garage.
Next time people crack that teenagers are good for nothing - I will defend.
Anyway - damage report was a broken gear shifter/lever, calipers were hanging off the front wheel, and some nicks and scratches. Overall the frame sliders paid themselves back 10x over and helped compensate for my stupid *ss. I had an aching back and bruised knees and pride.
Fast Forward To The Present
I later found out the reason the calipers were hanging off the front wheel in that small crash was that the bolts holding the calipers onto the front wheel had actually vibrated off while I was riding. Who knows if that is what caused the accident (the lack of front brakes when I tried to slow down) or what.
But that brings me to my current problem....
Current Problem
It has been a year now and I have really bad jitters. I got back on the bike twice after that small accident just to ride around the neighborhood but I wasn't having a good time because I was so scared of even doing slow speed turns - I guess because my confidence took a real kick in the behind. I'm not sure WHY I failed on that turn. Was it me? Was it the lack of brakes? And I have a huge fear of the bike falling and me trying to pick it up.
So it has been a year now - riding season this year is almost over for us ... only August and September left... and I have not ridden all year. My hubby is wondering if we should just sell the bike. I am wondering if we should too. Then I found this forum and decided I needed to just get past the jitters and get out there.
And so I made a blog... hoping that writing about all this would actually help me get the "balls" to get out there. To realize that yes that bike is heavy and big but I can control it.
So that bring us to today...
Today
Today I have decided this will be the day I get out there on that bike and go riding in a parkling lot, around the neighborhood... and get myself familiar again with the controls. Today is the day I will beat back the jitters and get out there.
Even as I write this I"m thinking about chickening out. *sigh* I hope I will have something to update with later! I know I can do this... I just need to stop being a wimp.

All About Me:
Hi I am Crispy - I'm a 26 year old female from Maryland. I got married in Jamaica a year ago (we did the whole destination wedding thing) and then we got a house, motorcycles, and a puppy in that order. My husband and I both used to be computer security specialists - but I went and decided to do a total career change and now I"m a kindergarten teacher.

All About Riding:
My husband got his first motorcycle in his 3rd year in college. He is now 28. So I have been in the back seat a long time now and just decided, like everything in my life, I would prefer to be the driver. So off I went to take the BRC course. I failed. Yep, you heard me. I failed. Whole thing was very disappointing as I had been doing great the whole class/course. When it came down to test time though, I was the first person in my group to go for all tests and I just choked. I guess I"m a visual learner and I needed to watch someone else ride through those cones first. Anyway, I came back the next week and passed with not even 1 point taken off.

About My Little Crash:
That was last year. After getting the M on my license, my husband and I went out and bought a used Suzuki SV650s for me. It's the same bike he has - which he loves - and is the same bike he learned on. He never outgrew it and as I love the style we now have one motorcycle model in two colors. The bike is a bit tall for me (I'm 5'8") and def. harder to sit on then those 250cc in the BRC class - but I love it.
Fast forward or rather lets to back in time to my little accident. So...
One year ago I was practicing around the neighborhood... Took a slow right turn maybe at something like 15mph no faster - and somehow managed to take the turn way to wide or fast or something and jumped sorta sideways over the curb crashing into the grass at 15mph (I think I need to practice more turning ). Bike over, gear shifter and kickstand take out a large chunk of the neighbors grass.
Now if that was all - I probably wouldn't bother retelling - but oh no..it gets worse.
So I take my 125lb self and actually managed to dead lift the bike up by myself. And you guessed it -...with me crying "no no no no!..." and scrambling it falls over in the other direction and crashes onto the street.
Freaking pissed (and maybe in a slight panic) at this point...I actually manage to dead lift the bike up again by myself. Before you ask - there are no neighbors around as everyone appears to be out of town for July 4th (the exact reason I decide now would be a great time to practice in the neighborhood streets) - and my husband is out paintballing today.
This time I get the bike upright without it falling over in the opposite direction. I notice now that the front brake caliper is hanging off. I start walking the bike back to my house which thankfully is only about 8 houses away... but it's an uphill walk the whole way so I’m panting and cursing.
Get to a point where I have to turn the bike, while pushing uphill...and oh yes... go ahead and guess... ""no no f*ck f*ck" , bike tips over AGAIN.
Now I'm standing there in the middle of the intersection absolutely exhausted and panting like I've run a freaking marathon. I try to get the bike up again - and this time my back is just not having any of it and the bike isn't budging. Finally a group of some teenage boys (finally a CAR) drives by, sees me, and get out of the car to help me get the bike up off the street, up the hill, and into my garage.
Next time people crack that teenagers are good for nothing - I will defend.
Anyway - damage report was a broken gear shifter/lever, calipers were hanging off the front wheel, and some nicks and scratches. Overall the frame sliders paid themselves back 10x over and helped compensate for my stupid *ss. I had an aching back and bruised knees and pride.
Fast Forward To The Present
I later found out the reason the calipers were hanging off the front wheel in that small crash was that the bolts holding the calipers onto the front wheel had actually vibrated off while I was riding. Who knows if that is what caused the accident (the lack of front brakes when I tried to slow down) or what.
But that brings me to my current problem....
Current Problem
It has been a year now and I have really bad jitters. I got back on the bike twice after that small accident just to ride around the neighborhood but I wasn't having a good time because I was so scared of even doing slow speed turns - I guess because my confidence took a real kick in the behind. I'm not sure WHY I failed on that turn. Was it me? Was it the lack of brakes? And I have a huge fear of the bike falling and me trying to pick it up.
So it has been a year now - riding season this year is almost over for us ... only August and September left... and I have not ridden all year. My hubby is wondering if we should just sell the bike. I am wondering if we should too. Then I found this forum and decided I needed to just get past the jitters and get out there.
And so I made a blog... hoping that writing about all this would actually help me get the "balls" to get out there. To realize that yes that bike is heavy and big but I can control it.
So that bring us to today...
Today
Today I have decided this will be the day I get out there on that bike and go riding in a parkling lot, around the neighborhood... and get myself familiar again with the controls. Today is the day I will beat back the jitters and get out there.
Even as I write this I"m thinking about chickening out. *sigh* I hope I will have something to update with later! I know I can do this... I just need to stop being a wimp.
