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Yesterday, 03/22/06 I new that I would have to put down the love of my life, My dog. She is now 12 1/2 years old. I rescued her from Rescue the Animal Foundation, she was an abused puppy of 6 months old. We have been through a lot together, she helped me when I needed her to. For one thing I have not had a drink in 12 1/2 years. I also saved both her legs when she needed both ACLs rebuilt. I was in hock for years with the cost of it but it gave her 7 years of full out running and chaseing birds and squirls. It's been a long struggle with Cancer for her the last few months and I now know in my heart that the best thing I can do for her is to comfort her.I have to do it today, there is no more hope. I do not want her to get to the point ware she suffers but she is not eating and unable to keep anything down when she does. I have done all I can for months even spoon feeding her when she needed to be fed that way. It looked like for a long time that she would get strong again as she was putting body weight back on every week for over two months. She began to run around again and show interest in things. But all that has changed again. She no longer plays or has any of that dog intrest that all dogs should have. She does not play with her toys and bones any more. She just looks up at me as if to say she is ready. I know it is time and I have a responcibility to her. I know some of you will understand and there will be others that will have no idea. My dog is all I have had as a companion for 12 1/2 years, I am all messed up big time. I mean I really really hurt inside. I have been like this for months knowing we cant fix Cancer. I hope you understand when I say I'm sorry for those off the wall posts the other day, all have been cool here and I understand if it can not be forgiven. To those involved," I'm sorry". I can just go away and maybe it's best, I just do not know yet. I guess you all will tell me that. Even if it's cool to hang out here I may not be around for a wile. I do not know how to cope with this. Today will be the worst day personally for me ever. I'm trying to gain pespective on all. I look at everything that you hear about in the news, all the death and killing- war and sickness and the losses everyone else suffers. It is all horrible and very bad and I realize it. Yes, this is my excuse for yesterday. I am not thinking clear. By

Sorry, I really have to move this duplicate thread. I will move it to Soapbox, and all replies should be done to the other thread, by the same name. It appears to be identical. I will lock this second post.

Again, sorry for what you are going through, and this is not a slam on you, but I do have to keep the threads orderly - and this is clearly not a new biker questions.