Sounds like you had the worst of both worlds, a load of sexual harrassment AND the belief that you were unattractive.
But frankly, the 'saucy' photos only go to confirm what comes across quite clearly in other pictures you've posted. I saw one somewhere of you in a haybarn (I think it was a haybarn - you see, I didn't notice the background!), and did an immediate double take.
A big heart and those kind of good looks are a great gift to the world. It's just a pity the world doesn't always respect what it is given. Be strong, enjoy and feel good about yourself.
I know that feeling bad about the way you look really can drag you down. I've seen it over many years. Di had the same problem. She had a very beautiful younger sister and in comparison she came off second best. Her father, who she never got along with, used to tell her that she was 'plain'. She wasn't at all - when we got together I thought I was the luckiest man alive. Apart from her looks she had a smile that could light up a room the size of the Albert Hall. But for a long time she believed what she had been told and felt insecure.
Sounds like you are repossessing what is rightfully yours. All power to you!
Best wishes
Richard
Hud
“Man has no right to kill his brother. It is no excuse that he does so in uniform: he only adds the infamy of servitude to the crime of murder.”
Percy Bysshe Shelley